Dormin'

This has been, so far, a really hectic week. Orientation has been anything but relaxing at all.

Yesterday was official move in day and what not. It was pretty crazy. After that, there was a floor meeting in my dorm. We just covered some ground rules, and got into out groups and stuff. It was pretty fun.

Today was another hectic run around. It began at freaking 8 in the morning! We had to sit through something I called a "reverse graduation". Let's just say, I fell asleep during MANY parts of it. After that, we were split into out Majors and sent to get talked to again. I am Undeclared for the moment. I really want to figure out a passion. We were told that it's okay to be Undeclared and what not. At least I am going to get my core classes out of the way. There after, we had this "Amazing Race" mock thing. It was completely and totally pointless. Me and a couple of other people from my group simply went to dinner after that. There was a hypnotist on campus that preformed. It had to be one of the funniest things I've seen recently.

My parents also left today. I can't tell you how emotional I was. People always complain that parents are annoying, and how they want them to leave, or shut up, but you never know what you have till it's gone. I know that I have 107382896328 problems with my mom, but I really do love her a lot. My father has to be the most amazing father in the world. I love him to death. They've done so much for me, and now I don't have them around anymore. I need this though.

I really do miss a lot of people back in NYC right now though. I miss my brother a lot, annoying and mean as he is. I really miss Sofia :( I am so not use to not seeing her. Things will adjust though, so it should be good.

One person who I also really miss is E$. I spoke to him on the phone yesterday and I felt my tummy drop and stuff. I didn't know you could miss a person that much! He'll be up in Cuse by tomorrow though, should be good. Sucks that we barely spoke these past few days, and probably the days to come...

I feel really stressed about the whole class thing now though. This isn't RFK anymore, I have to pay for this stuff, and it isn't cheap at all. I worry about my classes being hard and what not. (I finally got my schedule, and I don't have a class later than 11 [: ) I need to have at least a 3.5 or better :( This is going to be really hard, and I really do hope that I can stay focused :(

Big Move

So today I officially moved into my dorm. It was such a crazy and hectic day for me. It's 10 pm right now and all I want to do is go to bed.

I still have a lot of different emotions that are running through me. I don't really know how to feel about the whole being away from my friends and family type thing. I am really not even over not being able to see some people. So I am sitting here, spending my days thinking about certain people, and it's hard because it's probably not the same for them. I guess things will get better? I really hope so.

Thanks to Xhale, and Ergin, here are some songs that I like now :)

Blank

Yesterday didn't turn out how I planned it at all. It was pretty bad :-\

We were to late to do one of the thing that I planned out, so E$ and I went to the movies to see "The Collector". That was so discussing, I thought that I was going to throw up in the movies. -_-' After that, I had to go home due to family stuff. He kindly took me all the way back to Queens.

Saying "goodbye" to him, was probably the hardest goodbye I've said yet. I cried so much, today I woke in physical pain.
He really is the most amazing guy that I know. This is going to really be rough for me, for a while :( I really have a lot to say about him, but I don't want to start to cry again.

Today I have to say goodbye to Sofia. That is going to be a terrible cry fest.

It feels like the summer flew by. I don't feel like there was a summer at all. I really don't know what to write about right now, I am really like... not here i guess.

:-\

Oops

Okay, so it has literally been a week since I updated, sorry for that.

This was my last week in NYC :( I am going to miss it so much here, it is crazy. I never thought that I would be this attached to something. I love my friends. Like, i didn't realize how close I am to Sofia and Ergin, until last night. Don't get me wrong, sometimes I hate Ergin, and want to kill him, and Sofia and I argue like crazy, but I literally spent the summer with them. Ergin, in his own really weird ways, has taught me a lot this summer. I wouldn't be anywhere with out Sofia. She's been in my life since the 5th grade. I really can't imagine what it's going to be like not being so close to her. She is really my sister. This is going to be so hard :(

Saturday night I went to this new Hookah place in Forest Hills called Xhale. That place is amazing, I love it. It was Phil, Sofie, Yan, Ergin, Cristina, and three of her friends. That was a highly interesting night, I must say.
Sunday, I spent at work. It was my last day, that was really sad too. I hated work, but so much went down in that Kiosk :-\
Monday I went downtown to 34th with E$, and then Juan came later on. It was a good time. After that, I went out with my usual people, Mikey, Sofia, Ergin, Arsen, and Albina to Xhale. It was fun. We were celebrating Ergin's 19th birthday! It was so much fun.
Tuesday I took my nephew to the Zoo with my mom and Phil. It was so great :) He is growing up so quickly :(
Wednesday I saw E$ again. It started out really rough, then it got a lot better. I got really sick though :( Felt like passing out :(
Thursday, I chilled at home. Helped my dad work on his 71' Harley. it was cool. I am going to miss him a lot :(
Yesterday night I went out to dinner with Ergin and Sofia, some Italian place that was MAD good ! After we meet up with Mikey and Arsen, went to Xhale again. They had a DJ spinning techno beats. Shit was great.
Today, I planned out a whole day with E$. I hope he likes it :-|

I'll update later again. I have to take care of things =_=

Before The Storm

Blog World!

Thursday proved itself to be extremely boring. I simply went to work and that's all. I hate those days.

Yesterday was a completely and utterly amazing day. I spent the day with E$. It was semi rocky at first, being that it was scorching hot out. We walked around soho for a bit, searching for a pair of Vans, that no store had. After that, we went to Coney Island! I never went before, and I was happy that I went for the first time with him. The Wonder Wheel was amazing, even though I thought that I was going to die. Spook-O-Rama was pretty funny too. He got scared :) The funniest and probably worst thing was going on the Cyclone! That thing was so horrible! I am still suffering from severe whiplash. We got swindled too! Freaking this dart dude and his con art! We basically paid 30 for a stuffed dog -__-'. I Beat him in this water gun game. After, we were searching for Totonnos, a pizza place. We walked through the freaking ghetto to find out that it was closed for renovations. We just grabbed some Nathans. I think that the best part of the whole day was sitting on the dock. We were sitting there for an hour, simply waiting for the Fireworks to begin. Sitting there and spending time with someone you love is the most amazing thing in the world. It was beyond amazing. I doubt there are real words that are able to describe how I felt yesterday.

My dad just came home with a Harley. That, I must say, was one of the most invigorating feelings in the world. I loved it! I really do want a motorcycle!

So, right now, I'm not to sure on exactly how I am feeling. Like, I have a bunch of these random thoughts in my head. Thoughts that pertain to college, life here, and other things. I don't know how I should approach them either.

Why can't some people learn how to allow me to make mistakes on my own? As if I am a small child, who doesn't know how to handle things.

I am feeling kinda down now, actually.

Quick Fix.

Not much to really write about. I haven't felt to much in the mood to blog. Here are 2 new songs by Rihanna :)

BTW, Silly Boy is actually by Eva Simons. Unfortunately, they disabled the embedding code to put it here.

I really can't wait for friday<3.

Dull

I leave exactly 2 weeks from now. This is something that I have really been looking forward to, but now I really realize how much I really like things right now. I am extremely comfortable with how things in my life are at the moment, how everything is unfolding. Change is something that I am not very fond of, yet something that I have to deal with very, very soon.

Yesterday I went to a family BBQ, Dad's side. It was good. I saw a few cousins who I haven't seen in a really long time. It's good to see how people are doing. After that, I saw my Grandmother, Mom's side. She always makes me laugh like there is no tomorrow. I swear, she has quite the personality. After that, I simply went out to dinner with my parents.

Today, I went to work, and now I am home, watching Degrassi, waiting for ABDC encore to come on. It's been one of those off days for me. I wasn't in a bad mood, but I wasn't in the greatest mood either. It's one of those days.

"Words never spoken, actions never taken, and things still to come."
Words never spoken like how much I love you and how I am in love with you? Actions never taken like wanting to kiss you so passionately and hug you so tightly, never wanting to let go? Things still to come yet postponed due to other ongoing factors? I want to scream out loud and I really want to show you how much I care. But I can't. I am done pretending that I don't, when I do.

Now I am off to watch ABDC with E$. The beauty of Video Chat.

Quickie

Wow, so I haven't really written in a couple days. I guess it's the same thing as before: no inspiration. These past few days have been alright I guess. Yesterday and today stand out in my mind the most though. Tuesday, I just went to work and that's all. Same goes for wednesday, although Sofie slept over :) That was fun. On Thursday I went to see Funny People with E$. The movie itself was kind of a let down. One would think that Adam Sandler would make it pretty funny, but no. It was okay. After that, he and I went to et some cold stone :) It was awesome. The only bad thing was that he got a really bad headache. I hate seeing people that I love in pain. That is one thing that bothers me a lot. After Coldstone he and I laid on the grass at Bryant park and stared at the moon while I tried to help him feel better. It was a pretty much an amazing night.

Today, I went to the beach with Sofie and a couple of other friends. It was nice. After that I hit up Soho, with E$ again, lol. It was nice. We sat in Union Square Park. I laughed so hard today, it was crazy. It was such a good night with him.

Well that's all for now. I will write in depth tomorrow. There is a lot more for me to say.

Try To Say

Ahh! It's Monday. I really don't like Mondays.

This weekend proved to be pretty amazing to say the least. Leave it up to a weekend to figure out how much you really do care about some one. There is, quite literally, so much that I want to say. There is so much that I want to get out and say to the world, yet, I can't do that. All that I can say is I really do know what I want, I know what makes me happy.

It is really amazing how two people may have such a strong connection. The ability to feel extremely comfortable, and care free. Hair tied up, no make up, bummy tee shirt, it doesn't matter the feeling of comfort exceeds all things physical. I love the way that works. I love the how this one person makes me feel so comfortable, and care free. It's something that everyone should have in someone.

In 3 years, so many things can happen. In 3 days so many things can happen. The truth is that as much as we say we "know someone", but we really don't. How people may change their minds about someone that they "love" with in a blink of an eye, it heart breaking. There is never much that we can do when one's heart is broken. The only thing that we are able to do is pick up our things and move on in life. This is why so many people give up on love and it's innocence. It's sad.

I have this jumble of things in my mind. There are literally so many things that I am thinking about, I can barely function. Maybe this is why my head has been pounding since I woke up? The sad part is that I can't even put what I am feeling into words. Then again, maybe I don't want it to be publicized.

"No matter what I do, I just can't get you out of my mind. At this point, I could care less how you act: I'm attached"

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So, I haven't really blogged in a a few days. I guess I haven't felt that inspired or what not. It's late, I am trying to stay up even though I really should be sleeping. The things we do...

Anyways, this week has been College Prep week for me -_-' I don't know why. I have about 3 weeks left till I depart. I am kind of nonchalant about it right this minute. It's probably because I am tired.

I just want tomorrow to come already! Gr.