Stand up.

I legitimately thought about giving up on this whole Blog thing, I won't lie. The thought about not being heard or really listened to has lingered in my mind for some time now. The whole theory of "if a tree falls, but no one is around to hear it, does it make a noise?". If no one bothers to hear you, or read what you have to say, are you really saying anything? Is the point that you so desperately wish to make, really being made? When the ignorance of people over comes them and radiates onto others, are the things you say important?

I would lay in bed, restlessly thinking about this theory, losing night of sleep, turning into a zombie throughout the day; all because I wanted to be heard. I WANT to be heard. I want to be acknowledged. I want people to know who I am and what I m about.

The problem with wanted to be heard is that if no one respects you, you wont be heard. Your ideas and opinions won't be taken into consideration, and people WILL step on you. They will step on your beliefs.

Its the saddest thing to realize, but I am here to tell you all the truth, whether you want to listen to me, or not, whether you respect me or not. Here is the truth: Your opinion matters. You have the right to be respected, no matter what you have done in your past.

People won't respect those who don't speak up, and even if you do, they still might not respect you just because of ignorance. But at the end of the day, you can't change people's opinions. They will judge you on the simplest things. They will judge you because of your clothes, opinions, actions, grades and or for no reason at all. It doesn't matter how much you have done in your lifetime. Even if you have gone across the world and saved children from hunger, people will pick you apart piece by piece and leave you thinking that you are not worthy of anything. They are wrong.

As humans we all have feeling, and we ALL have flaws, no matter how flawless you think you are. Also, as humans, we have great accomplishments and things to be proud of, no matter how many flaw you think you have. At the end of the day, we have the free will given to us by God to decide what we are worth. We are all worth more than allowing people to dictate to us what we are worth. Stand up for yourself.

Standing up for yourself is the single most important thing to do. You need to be able to defend your opinions and your views. This does NOT mean having to prove yourself to anyone, nor does it mean having to explain yourself to anyone. No one should matter that much, and if they do, you won't have to prove yourself, or explain yourself. Standing up for yourself is MAKING your voice heard, it's about making yourself known. In the end, if they STILL don't respect you, and if they treat you the same, you have the satisfaction of knowing that they are ignorant.

So, here is me standing up for myself. Here is the things that I couldn't tell all you haters in person because of certain things/people I still respect:

I AM A HUMAN BEING! I have feelings. My heart pumps blood runs through my veins. I have parents, siblings, friends, and school work JUST LIKE YOU! You have no right to judge me, you have no places in this world to have said a single negative word about me. The negativity that has sued out of your mouth and onto the ears of your comrades about me is totally wrong. YOu think that you have the authority to judge me based upon my actions of last semester? You believe that you have the authority to think less of me? YOU'RE WRONG! You think that you're the best because you're apart of something now?! Well guess what? I am apart of something bigger, and much more worth while. I am apart of something that means a lot to others. I am an individual who believes in something more than this, more than the partying and the drinking and social life. I am an individual who believes in something more than YOU! I have been through more than you will EVER believe, and it WASN'T by choice, it was by fate. I am stronger than you think, and smarter than you know. So before you decide to past judgement on someone you don't know, and never gotten the chance to know, you should think twice. I know why I made the decision I did. I know the type of person I am, and the type of person I want to be. I have nothing to prove to you. I have nothing to explain to you. I didn't leave because of you. I didn't run away from the issue. I left because I know what I am worth, and I refuse to subject myself to he malice treatment you dish out. You don't know me, and you will never know me.

I hope that this helps someone out there. I realized that no matter what others think about you, if you need or feel like something deserves to be said, say it, no matter who you believe is listening. I guarantee you that someone will listen to you. Someone will know what you're feeling. It will matter to someone.

Don't be afraid to stand up and shout it out.