Just Know I Love You

What a weekend. It was eventful and relaxing at the same time. Saturday, I stayed in and hung out with my girls. We watched some movies and just relaxed. The chinese food up here is TERRIBLE! I hate it -_-' So the pizza, and chinese food sucks. I am stuck with the crapy Union food too! AAHHH! I'll live.

Sunday was hectic! Hannah, Ash, and I went to the Peach Festival over in Lewiston, by Hannah's hometown. It was so much fun. I won a fish! :) It was freaking great. The rides were a lot of fun and I had the most amazing peaches of my life! They were so good, ahh! Yummy <3
After the peach festival, we went back to Hannah's house to eat dinner. We got there kind of early, so we ended up watching TV first. Dinner was amazing, her parents are great chefs. It was so good to have a home cooked meal for once! Lol. The day was amazing!

Once we got back to campus, we were watching the VMAs. Oh boy, what a show it was! Now, I like Kanye West as an artist. I love him music and what not, but that stunt he pulled last night on Taylor Swift was the rudest thing I have ever witnessed. It was completely and totally uncalled for. He stole her spot light and made himself look like an jerk-off. He was rude and arrogant. It's funny because I really don't think that the 'Single Ladies' video was all that great. The dance to it is amazing, yet the video isn't that amazing. It's good to have a country artist win for a change as well. We don't see that a lot, especially on MTV. None the less, Beyonce' won Video of the year, so Kanye should have stayed shut. He is stupid. I was in awe that Beyonce let Taylor get her change to shine. Both Taylor and Beyonce are great artists. It was nice to see them both on stage, even though it was under unfavorable circumstances.
Jay-Z's performance was great! He and Alicia Keys are great together! (I can't wait to get his album on tuesday! :) I am so excited about that, and Kid Cudi's.) Who the HELL told Lil' Mama that she could go up on stage and hold that stance. Lil' Mama, you are NOT a thug. You are not even a respectable artist! you shouldn't share a stage with Alicia Keys and Jay-Z.
Lady Gaga is a whole different story. I really don't like her music much, and that performance was terrible! Apparently it seems like she wanted to act like Jesus? She was wearing a shroud after, and looked like a complete and total idiot. She is trying way to hard to be like Madonna, it's ridiculous. He wardrobe changes were to crazy. I respect her, but not her taste that much.

Sunday, I saw how close, and loving Hannah's family is. They literally look like the perfect family, with no problems at all. It's funny, when I think about the difference between her family, and her house, with that of my own. How broken my family seems, how complicated things are. Even though we are all broken, we still love each other a lot. That's all that matters, even if it's not shown, right? Sometimes loving people doesn't mean they have to show it all the time? I guess that's how life works. I just don't get certain things sometimes. It's a hard concept to grasp.

I have so many emotion in me right now. I feel like I always have to fight to prove something. I feel like I always have to shut my mouth and eat my feelings to make other people feel more comfortable. I am tired of doing that, yet I always find myself doing it. I have to fluff up other people's pillows while I lay my head on a hard, cold rock. I fall asleep with pains and cold, while they wake up fulfilled and pain free. Why do I always put myself in these situation? I have way to much love in my system. Maybe that's how life has to be for me? I would rather people feel happy over me, anyway. I'll live. I will get over it. I don't want to hold anyone back from what makes them happy. I don't want to hold anyone back from anything. Live Your Life...that's all that I am able to say. Life moves on, and the pain will disperse in due time. I just want to see smiles and make people happy.

Times are hard, they will only get harder. I just know my love will always be there. And I know that I will always be there, no matter what happens.

I am off to the union.