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Sometimes I feel like I get lost within my own thought. Even when things are going okay, I still feel like there is something to be thought about, something to fix, something to be better. I don't think that I will ever be satisfied with how things are. Even if things are perfect, or as close to perfect as it can be, I think that something is going to mess things up; then I end up messing things up and making things really bad. I can't help it, I guess. I mean, I wish I wouldn't do that to myself but I just do. It is part of my nature I suppose.

After my first year of college, after my first year of being away from home, I feel like everything has changed. I feel like there has been so much in ME that has changed. I know that I didn't change for the worse, I know that for a fact but at the same time, why are people acting so... shady? I guess that is the word that I can use. I guess people will always have something to say.

Sometimes I feel like the loneliest person in the world. Even if I am with friends... or "friends" I feel so alone and blank. That's when the staring into space thing happens. Eh, I guess that could happen to the best of us.