Quiet Morning

It's early Sunday, and it's dead silent in the dorms of Perry. You can hear nothing but the wind blowing, the crows talking to each other, and now my finger's quick movements across the keyboard. It's a good feeling, to finally hear silence throughout the halls of Club Perry.

My parents are leaving back to the city today. It's a difficult thing to express the way I feel about it. This weekend was very much eye opening as to how people act when you have been gone for a while. I am not going to lie, I did miss both of them extremely, but this is something that I have to do, and they understand that. We are still going to fight, and disagree on a lot of things, especially my mother and I, but I know it's all love in the same.

Last night was rough. It's actually been 2 pretty rough nights for me in a row. To love someone and care for them in ways beyond his/her comprehension is something difficult to do, especially when he/she doesn't listen to you. "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink" is very true. I'm not going to leave him, just because things get a littler rough, no that's not what I am here for. I'm going to be here, waiting it out through thick and thin no matter how hard it's going to get, and I know that it's going to get really hard. Last night was just one of many nights that I am willing to go through for him. I know that I am going to get mad at him, and I know that there are going to be points where I just want nothing to do with him (like last night, up most disappointed) but I know that letting go over little things is pointless. I, of all people know, not to give up on others, especially ones that you love and care for this much! People may call me stupid, crazy, young and blinded by love, but I don't care. I don't care if the world know that I am in love with him. But, I shall be discrete and respect his wishes. (Although people who know me, and know me well, already know who this person is).

The thing about me is that I know what I want, and I know that I am sure of it. I'm in this for the long run, good times and bad times, no matter what. I don't know if it will be what I pray for in the end, but it sure as hell worth the try.

I will probably be updating later seeing how it's just 9am. I am off to breakfast with my parents.