Two Post in One.. Sorry about that .

Tuesday:

It's been a while since a full update lets go back a few day.

Wednesday I saw In The Heights, it was AMAZING. I HIGHLY recommend it for anyone and EVERYONE to see.

Saturday the party went pretty well. The food was AMAZING, and the music was live, literally. Not many times happen where my family gets together like that. I loved it, even if we didn't spend the entire time all together. It was a nice time, I think.

Sunday was cool too. Went to work as usual. Phil and Cristina picked me up. I ended up finding a lot of things out. Things that inevitably hurt me so much, I cried in the car while driving. That sucks. People change for the good and the bad. I don't know anymore. Anyways, after that whole ordeal, they both convinced me to go to their friend's house. I did go, and i had a great time. Drank a little. Georgie is...rubbing alcohol. Nastiest thing i ever sip on IN MY LIFE ! Lol, Cristina and Phil agree. besides that, it was a great time with chill people. Went again last night, and relaxed some too.

(We all grow up. We all realize the things that we were destined to be, the things that have been written in stone before we were even a nasty thought. Some are meant to change the world and others aren't. I know you're destined to greatness, a greatness that is beyond what you may be able to perceive.)

Part of me really can't wait to get the fuck out of NYC. Go and see and meet new people. Shed this old skin and create a new one. Really find me. Change me. But the other part of me wants to stay and hold on, tight, to what I have. That part of me wants to mend things that might not be fixable. Ahh, I don't know much about anything anymore. Just got my blinds on and waiting to leave....things will work out?

I'm getting sick. Throat has been hurting some. Arghs.

Till next time.

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Blah, one of those days.

It started out kinda bad, got better, and now, it's slumped. Like, I honestly have no idea how I am feeling right now.


I don't think that I am mad, sad or upset. But I am far from happy. I feel kind of ... peeved maybe? Arghs, I don't know.


I'm trying to be indifferent about everything now. There is no point in caring anymore I guess. My faith (no religious) is slowing slipping too I guess.


There are so many things that I really want to say, but I can't. Like, there are no words that will fit what I want to say, and then if there are words, I'm just going to be proven wrong. I honestly have no idea how to function or go about things. It's kind of getting me aggravated.


Blah, just more things I have through go about alone.