Turn Around

I don't know if I will blog much later on in the day. It has been, not terrible, but a rough day I suppose. I want to go to California more and more as the days progress.

I am going out with Phil and Drew<3 then hopefully I'll see Sofie :)

Some relativily new stuff by/with Rihanna. I love her <3






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So it turns out that I didn't see Sofie in the night :(
Instead, I headed with Drew and Phil to Steven's house. That was fun, really chill, so I liked it.

I really can't wait for this weekend though! It starts on Thursday with shopping:)
Friday out with Eddie, and Saturday with E$ :)

The "Talk"

Okay, so I really wasn't planing on blogging today at all. I haven't really felt inspired enough to blog, until now.

I met my cousin last summer around this time. Her name is Jasmine and she is 15, about to be 16 in september. She is really smart and pretty, the whole 9 yards. Now, I am not to sure she has a lot of older cousins out there but she turned to me, possibly indirectly, but to me none the less. Now, I have never experienced this before, being that I am the youngest out of my cousins in older than 11. I am not to sure on how the topic of sex came up, but it did. Now, I understand that there isn't a huge gap in our age, I am 18, she is going to be 16, but I still see her as really young. The questions like "how old were you?", "did it hurt?" and other things came about, and the one thing that perplexed me the most was "should I lie, or tell the truth?". Now, she is young! And I wish that I had someone close to my age that I could talk to like that when I was 15. So I stared at the text message, wondering what is it that I should go through with. Still uncertain, I thought within myself "what is it that I would have wanted? The truth, or a lie?". I told her the truth, about it all. I figured that she needed to hear it, and I would have wanted it that way anyway. So now, I basically told her my "story" and how everything unraveled. It went pretty smoothly I might add. I give it up to all those parents who do that. It makes me feel really special though, that I was able to share that with her. It also made me realize how much I miss her and want to go to cali. I should try and go out there before the summer is over. Maybe for a few days. I need the vacation anyway!

On to a less interesting topic, my past two days weren't that incredible or amazing. I worked 8 hours yesterday, and went out to dinner. I tell you, Captain Mai Tais are AMAZING<3. I like red wine too, I don't know why, but the flavor is really good. Anyways, I actually got really sick from something that I ate, and ended up being sick for the rest of the night and on to this morning. Regaurdless of my illness, I woke up and went to work. It's funny, if I don't eat, I am fine, yet if I eat anything, I feel sick again. :( It sucks. I went to see a movie after work. The Ugly Truth for the second time. It was funnier the second time as well, lol.

I have some other things on my mind tonight. Why some people decide to act certain ways. Why people chose to me immature about things. Why some people feel the need to be intoxicated. All things that I am thinking about. Why I can't get this one person out of my head. Why I like having this person on my mind at all times. Why I am allowing myself to give in to certain unattainable highs in which I will soon crash from. And wondering if I am really feeling, what I think I am feeling, in which these feelings are some serious feeling! Ah. All things that are passing through my mind. My laziness is prevailing though, as my hands slowly being to type slower, and slower. My eye lids are getting heavier as well. That's a sign, I may need some sleep, lol.

Goodnight.

I just want to run into your arms and kiss you in the pouring rain :( Is that so much to ask ?

Crazy Little Thing Called...

"Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity." -- Henry Van Dyke


Today was a really, really great day! It was definitely really rocky at first, but as the day progressed, it turned out to be great. I was suppose to see an old friend today, Brandon. Last minute complications ruined those plans. I ended up spending the day with E$. We went to Union Square, and ended up being late to the movie. We got Jamba Juice<3. It's the greatest juice! Lol, anyways, we ended up going to a later showing of 500 Days of Summer. That movie was one of the best movies that I have seen this year. I will explain more in a bit. After the movie, he and I walked slightly aimlessly until we stumbled upon a mexican restaurant. I convinced him that we should try it, and like always, my judgment was great! The place was pretty awesome :) The ambiance of the restaurant was really nice, and the food was good to! He shouldn't question my taste now, :) haha <3

Over all though, it was really a great day. It's the best feeling in the world to hang out with someone that you feel connected to. Call me corny, or whatnot, but it is true. To sit there and be able to smile and laugh with such ease and comfort, is amazing. It's not common for someone to find a person and feel as if he/she may confide the world in the other. The simple act of gazing into his/her eyes is the most comforting feeling in the world. Being about to see, not only your reflection in the persons eyes, but also a piece of yourself. No matter what happens, I don't think that things would be able to change between 2 people with a really strong connection and bond. No amount of time, no amount of distance. Well, it's all up to fate and where it choses to take us in life.

The reason why I believe 500 Days of Summer to be such a great film is because it's a "love" story that very well represents real life. Every "love story" portrayed in movies that are shown in theaters always tend to end with some extremely fluffy ending. Those exact ending, sad to say, very rarely happen outside of a film set. Now, in this movie it is extremely different. It represented how certain relationships are in real life! Nothing in life is perfect. It is almost impossible to have a rain shower just when your loved one kisses you passionately in the street after a huge fight! It doesn't happen, and if it does, God, I hate you for your perfect timing! Lol. I am not a bitter person on love. I believe that love is the most powerful thing humanly possible. I say that because love may branch out into other emotions, such as jealousy, and happiness. There is no running or hiding from love. One may either deny his/her love for another, or he/she may embrace is and allow it to radiate through his/her body, and actions. Love is never destroyed, it simply morphs or hides itself. It is up to a person to figure out what is to be done with this powerful emotion. There is no fighting it, remember that always.

Anyways, it is ridiculously hot in my room, I am going to bed. Goodnight world.

If It Kills Me

"The saddest part about it is that the only thing that I want to do is run into your arms and kiss you like I will never see you again. Look into your eyes and tell you the ultimate truth. The truths that lie in the depths within my heart, buried under the lies that I have lived for several months. In the depths of my heart which is guarded like a precious jewel. I just want to sit and pour out my heart and let you know everything that I have been hiding. The truths to the facade that I have been living for several months. The truths that i have been running from. The truths that I have been so frightened of. The truths that brought me down in the beginning. I just want to tell you everything and go back. So here goes..."

I wouldn't actually say anything, at least not here. I am really not in the mood to write tonight. I just wanted to write that. I don't know.

Everybody Knows

Today proved to be a pretty decent day! It's funny how you find things out about people that you would never expect :(

Today wasn't that eventful, now that I think about it. I just went to the Doctors early in the morning. Turns out, I don't need surgery on my knee. I need some serious Physical Therapy though. The cartilage in my knee is slowly weakening. Not to bad, I guess. Well, after that, I traveled uptown to head to work. It was possibly the most annoying day too. To have someone stand there and talk to you, when you clearly don't want to talk to them, makes you want to be deaf! -__- Thank God for my iPod :)
Side Note, Thanks E$ for those 2 new tracks. Saved me about.. 12 minutes of hearing that woman rant.

After work, I went out for a drive with my friend Brian, it was fun fun times. Lol. We went to the supermarket, bought stuff for me to cook, then he dropped me off. The vegetable isle is the coldest isle, I swear. Anyways, I cooked, then Drew came over after his job interview. After I heard his story of a bad day, I don't think that I will ever complain about anything. He basically walked for 4 hours in the city, in the rain, with no cell phone and no cash! :( I felt terrible. We went to his place after and I came home not to long ago.

It's one thing to be mad about certain situations that have occurred, but to carry it on and on and on for 2 weeks, that just gets plain out ridiculous! Don't claim that you won't act a certain way, when you clearly will. Growing up and out of things is a big part of life, so staying stuck on something that happened is pointless. Shit is weak, and gets so annoying. I am sorry for wrongs that I have done, at least I act the way i feel, and I openly admit to it. I hate when people do that. Especially when guys do it. There is no need to act big and "macho". We all know that you are just a sad because things didn't go your way. Maturity is definitely needed on your part. Also, why try to act like something that you are clearly not! It's not going to get me to like you! -__-

Anyways, that was my complaint for the day. On to a much more denser topic.

I realized today that people are always complaining on how there are starving people in 3rd world countries. Have these people blanked it out in their minds that there are starving people down the block? America is great, well, the general idea of America and what it stands for it great and all, yet there are some people that have no luck at all. It's sad to say that maybe in stead of donating money to be shipped off to a 3rd world country, we should start here, at home. To see someone that I know personally, go hungry, is something that hurt more than anything. I never thought that I would see the day where one of my friends didn't have a meal or anything like that. I mean, it's not that the person hasn't eaten in weeks, or anything. Yet, the struggle I see, only the surface of as well, is painful. It may just be my personality, yet, it touched a part of my heart and is lingering there. This thought has been marinating in my mind since about 8 o'clock, maybe we should be more aware of our close surroundings, not just world issues. In order to change the world, change must start first at home.

Open Book

I never really did a free write blog entry. EddieBoy gave me the idea. It seems like a good one though. I never really thought to do it. So here I go.

I want to go walk across the Brooklyn bridge, and try out some random restaurant in south street. I want to go to Liberty Island and Ellis Island. I want to watch the sunset from the Staten Island Ferry and I want to see the night sky from the Heights. I want to walk along downtown and totally avoid Time Squre and 34th St. I want to go to the places that make NYC, NYC. The true essence and heart of the city. I want to experience all of that before i leave. But time is cut and people that I know aren't very open to that idea. I have come to realize how selfish people are. The fact that some people that I know are very close minded people. It's okay, just mundane! I do want to leave very soon though. I am really excited! My friend Drew <3 also just told me that the legal drinking age in Canada is 18 ! Looks like I am taking some trips up to Canada during school ! :)

I have a slight fear or being forgotten. I mean like, with some people, I could really care less, yet with others, it bothers. It hurts also. To share a stretch of memories with another person, memories that one may hold so dear and close to one's heart, to have them all erased, as if they were nothing of importance. It's the fact that I know that I won't forget people. I tend not to.

I have given my heart away once again, and I am back to the same place. I have to find my even medium, and I think that I have found it. I have to realize that all people don't care like I do, and that's okay.

So I am really looking forward to leaving this place ! :) I've gotten semi close with EddieBoy and that makes me feel so comfortable in leaving. Also, my roommate is so nice! Although her and I are total opposite in practically every way possible, we still get along really well. To know that there are going to be some amazing people that I am going to meet! Life Has only just begun for me!

Bummer

So the past two days have been anything but amazing. Just okay i guess. I don't feel like writing much tonight. This is why I hate my birthday though. It's exactly the reason why I try to make my loved one's birthday the greatest that they can be, ever. It's the exact reason why I go so out of my way. I know what it feels like to have a crappy birthday :(

Anyways, I am going to stare at the ceiling, and listen to some Cudi. He always makes me feel better.

shout out to eddie boy, you rockk dude :)

Birthday Sex

Woo ! So, today was my birthday. I went to the beach with phil sofia and cristina. After that I went to dinner with my parents. The big ONE EIGHT. It's not much of a difference. The day wasn't that amazing, to be honest. I was just glad that I was out of my house.

High points of my day: Coming home to a GIANT strawberry shortcake, 3 balloons, 2 cars, flowers, and a lotto ticket :) Also, finding out who my room mate is! She seems pretty cool, I must say.

I find in myself that I need to not be so, pensive on things. I think way to much now, maybe about things that shouldn't matter to me. I can't help it though. Oh well.

I hate when people aren't 100% truthful. -_- It may just be me and my overly pensive self, but I know certain people really well, and not being 100% truthful doesn't work out! Especially if I see you almost every day. -_-

I also hate when I have someone on my mind, literally the whole day. It's aggravating. I feel like I am back in middle school, all giddy and the constant though of when will call/text. I feel like a little school girl, awaiting a simple glance from that boy. Then, when he looks my way, my stomach begins to do back flips, my cheeks begin to fill with a red-ish pick color. My eyes wander towards him, as if they have minds of their own. When his hand touches mine, even if it's for a second, I feel my heart jump, like electricity surging though my body, sending a signal to every nerve in my system. My mind begins to wander like a lost child in a toy store. My heart simply takes over all of my actions, disregarding everything that my mind has to say. With that, I get angry with myself. I don't see the point of feeding into the emotion that your heart is so blindly following. It's simple in the fact that I am the only one thinking, and feeling this way. It's a circle, and endless circle of something that is so out of my control. I hate it. Yet, I don't see it any other way...for now.

There are still a lot of emotions that are in my right now. I don't feel like divulging it all now though.

Semi good birthday. Seeing E$ tomorrow, should be interesting.

Good Night

Zoned

"Keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away." -Dinah Craik.
It's always hard to figure out what's worth keeping when you have all of it. That's the saddest part about it. Once you let it go, you may not have all of it again for a really long time.

I want to chop off my leg. I think that would be the best thing to do right now, considering the fact that it's always hurting. If you know me well, you will know that I am never 100% when it comes to my physical health. Either I have a headache, my knee is hurting, my foot is hurting, or my back. It never seems to fail. It is quite frequently my knee though. Sad, sad thing. Oh well.

So today I woke up, and I knew that I would be out of it for most of the day. Just had one of those feelings.

My phone was cut off since last night. It's an odd feeling to be without something that one is always on. Like, a part of me was missing. But, you find out some good stuff when people can't get in touch with you ;)

Anyways, so I went all the way downtown to meet up with pops so I could get my new phone. It took me 2 freaking hours to get downtown. Two hours! It usually takes me, at most, 45 minutes. I ended up meeting Eddie at 2:15 instead of 1:30 -_-. Sorry bro! Lol. He's a really cool kid. We chatted for a few but then split. E$ did end up going to the concert ( =D ) . Too bad he was about 2 hours late or so. By the time that we walked back to Central Park, we couldn't get in. We bummed a spot right out in the back of the arena and listened to Chester French. I must say, I definitely had the best seat in the house. It was good sitting and listening to one of my favorite duos. I want to SEE them in concert though. Lol. Once Chester left the stage, we bounced. We went to eat and what not. It was good fun.

After the city with E$, I headed back into Queens where I met up Sofie, Yan, Ergin, and Arsen. We went bowling, well, they were bowling while I was watching. Sucks having a bum knee man, can't do anything. It was fun though. I swear they are all on some shit! I ate some nachos which completely and totally got me hyper as hell. There was something in the cheese, I swear! What ever it was, it knocked me out of my "zone-ness" that I was in for the whole day.

There are day where my excitement for college is illuminating through me. Then there are days where I never want this summer to end. The animosity in my being is growing as each day approaches faster and faster. I am simply scared. I guess I am afraid to face the reality that it's not going to be the same. Things are going to change, and I have to pull myself up and accept it. I have to realize that it's a good change. I just don't want to lose some people that I care about the most. Even if some of those people don't care as much as I. But that's life.

Its been a long day. I think I shall attempt to fall asleep. Or maybe stare at my phone for the rest of the night -_-

Peace Cromies.

Summer Sun

AH, long day. I am so dead tired right now. Went to sleep late, again. I was talking to an intoxicated person on the phone till about 4:30AM, lol. That was fun.

I went to the beach with Sofia. Spent the whole day there basically. Water is the most tiring thing in the world, I swear it. The waves were so freaking strong. We spent most of the time in the water. It was way to hot to just lay on the beach and do nothing. I seriously need to find my volley ball. -__-'

I love the water. It's so calming and cool on the skin. I swear, I could stay in the water all day. It clears my mind. The crashing of the waves and the sky.

I am about 10 shades darker as well. Lol :)

The attire some people have to go to the beach it outrageous. I know that people have their own right to go to the beach. They pay their own money, yadda yadda. But come on! Don't come to the beach in BOXERS! It's not attractive at all. Wear bathing suits that fit you people!

But anyways.
It sucks wanting something so badly, and knowing that you can't have it. It's within arms reach, but it keeps getting pulled back. Kind of like the ebbing of waves. The waves push you away from the ocean, towards the land. It fights you so hard, and you just go with it. But once it's done, pulls you right back, out deeper into the ocean with it. This is a continuous process as the waves and the water begin to tire you out. You become so tired, as your body becomes so heavy, you simply allow the wave to bring you out. You're to tired to put up much of a fight before. As tiring as it is, and having to put up a fight, one just, allows it to happen. You see, once you are out in the ocean, allowing the waves to rock you as if you are in a cradle, it's calming. Soothing relief from the intense hot sun. You know in the end you are going to be tired, and in pain. But it's a good kind of feeling, and you still chose to do it. The fight proves something to you, makes you feel alive, makes you feel like one with another. But sometimes, you get so tired, you just want to go back and deal with the heat of the sun.

Peace Kiddies.

I'm here and I'm now

So today was long and tiresome! I had to head over to Parsons Beacon to get pick up some thing so I can get my check. I miss my old job :( But there is nothing that I can do about it now.

After that, I met up with Sofia. She got tickets to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince in IMAX 3D. Man, that movies was awesome. Now, for the IMAX 3D part, I thought that I was going to die. It didn't help that we were sitting 4 rows from the front either. None the less, the movie was great. I might actually read the 7th book, not to sure yet. We got a bite to eat after. Went to some japanese joint on broadway. It was good, mad hot though -__-' . I also went to FAO Schwarts for the first time in my life. They have this huge candy section, and I went crazy! Lets just say, I was on a huge sugar rush after. It was a good day. I haven't hung out with Soifa alone in ages. Tomorrow we're hitting up the beach, again, I can't wait.

There is a free concert at central park this Saturday. Q-Tip, Chester French, and Little Dragon. I just downloaded some Q-Tip, it's pretty good. I love Chester French, as earlier read. Never heard of Little Dragon, ever. Hope they are good too. Eddie is going, so that's going to be cool. I am suppose to go with E$, but not to sure yet. I really want him to go though, reminiscing on old times. Like the fact we saw them in concert in October. It was great. Grr, he better go :(

Anyways, I'm going to listen to this album, Peace kids.

Haunted

I want to go on top of the highest building in NYC and just scream. I want to scream my lungs out till I am to tired to move.

I should be asleep. I have an MRI in about 4 hours. My body hurts, my head hurts, my eyes hurt, I am sore, and physically I am really tired. Yet my mind is wandering to places that I don't like to visit. Reminiscing on past memories, that should stay in the past. Simply wandering to the caverns and caves in my mind where there should be no light. As I lay my head on my pillow, my body at ease, relaxing every muscle, minus the brain. I feel my body drift away into serenity, but my mind is going through each and every one of the memories that torture me. The only thing that takes my mind off of the past, is the chime of my cell phone once a text message is received.

Alright, now, since I got that off of my chest, I really should be sleeping. But since I can't, due to the previous paragraph, and wanting to talk to E$, I shall remain awake until I can bare no more.

Today was long. I went to the beach with the crew in the morning. It was fun. I am tanner, I love it. After that I just had my driving lessons. People yet to amaze me in their stupidity. I shall not delve into that at the moment. I took a nap, then walked around with the crew again. It was a semi eventful, semi uneventful day.

I am not looking forward to my birthday. (which is on monday). Past 13 years have been a flop, no sense in breaking tradition. It's going to be boring I think. I hope I can think of something to do that day, ease my mind a tidder?

I want sleep. Goodnight.

Wowza

Okay, so I got out of work early, 6 to be exact. Kinda not early, but early for me, considering that I would usually get out around 8pm! Woo, not to mention, I am kind of hyper! :)

So, thanks to Jam Young, I began a twitter site today. I don't know how to work it, that's the sad part. You can catch me at twitter.com/JAYYelPEA ! (JLP, get it?) I don't know what I am going to "twitter" about, but I guess I'll find out as I go along.

Anyways, today was ultra boring. I had a doctors appointment. All the way in the freaking city! Midtown, to be exact. There is always problems with the HIP crap too. It gets so annoying, being on hold for about 20 min ! -_-' Whatever though, I got to see the doctor. All that waiting for a 5 minute session! In which he was making my leg move in ways it should not. I just hope that there is a way to fix my freaking knee. a year with this! AHHH ! I had to schedule an MRI for wednesday, at 5 AM, shoot me now.

Good thing!: HARRY POTTER COMES OUT ON WEDNESDAY<3
Bad thing!: I have another doctors appointment on my Birthday! July 20th, at 8:45 am. No biggie though, I have no plans for that day anyway.

On a much more antagonizing note, at work today my favorite rapper came through my gate. Lupe Fiasco walked through the my gate. Lupe Fiasco came to my store, bought a pair of $35 headphones. He was trying to start a conversation with me, and all I could say to him was "$38.11 is your total." I was beyond star struck at this point. I mean, my motor skills were shot to hell and I couldn't even think. I am mad at myself because I waited for this day since last November, and I couldn't even talk :( BLAHH!

Lighter Notes: I just switched my phone, stupid voyager broke on me, again. LG-cheap! -__-'

I can't wait for January 25, 2010! BLACKBERRY

I hate when people don't text back, that annoys me! It's like I am on edge, wondering when I will be receiving a text message back, if at all! Or those one word texts. AH drives me crazy. But yeah.

I don't know what's up for tonight though. I want to go out.

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Course Change

Ayyooo !

Okay, so fill in about this weekend, shall we?

Friday night! : I actually didn't do much. Um, I did run for about 40 min. but then I stopped. My knee was yelling at me. I walked the rest of the way home pretty much. Chilled and listen to the Pod. Pink is a really good artist! Put her out there. I actually have Numb playing right now :) Giving Kid Cudi a break, lol.

But anyways, in the night I chilled with the guys. Yan, Rando, Mikey, Phil, Yackov, Tory, and Phil. We all went to see Bruno. That shit was so wack. I got up and left early on in the movie. It's so distasteful. SMH to that movie. After that, we headed out to Valentinos for some grub, and just chatted. Shared drunk stories, that was hilarious. There was definitely something in Mikey's red bull, and he wasn't sharing. He was OD hype, no reason. Lol.

Saturday!: Felt like a long ass day, but it really wasn't. I woke up, and cleaned a lot. I met up with e$ in the city. We saw Public Enemies. It was pretty good, but now he wants to cut a line down the middle of his mustache like Johnny, lol. He's a character. After we grabbed a bite to eat, and headed out to the Docks. We talked, it was good times.

Today!: I did nothing. I went to work from 10-6. Then went school shopping! WOOO! Dorm stuff is awesome! On top of that, the cashier actually goes to BSC ! It was pretty cool, she's a JR. Found out some very good info >=)

After that, I went to dinner with my parents. Then I saw Yan for literally 5 min. Came home, and now I am here. Chatting away listening to Pink.

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

That is a quote to seriously take into consideration. It doesn't matter what happened in certain situations, one can change the outcome. Sometimes it's good to go against what your mind tell you and to follow your heart. Even if it is wounded.

On that note, I shall leave.

goodnight

Sober

The few couple days have been, a little more than confusing and hectic for me. I feel poisoned, not alcohol poisoned! Lol, just poisoned.

So I don't have much plans for the afternoon. It's annoying me a bit. I want to go out tonight, somewhere crazy...o.O. I am tired of the same friday night routine ! RAAAAAAWWRR !

I feel like going running... To bad that I can't because on my stupid knee. Too bad for my knee that I am stubborn as HELL !

I'm going running, I need to think.

Peace.

No Place Like...

Home? Or my home away from home, to be away from home!

Last night was the second night in a row that I fell asleep around 5AM. 5:22AM to be exact. God knows what reason i am falling asleep like this, but w.e.

I also slept over my best friend's house. It's amazing how we bring out the hyper-ness in eachother. Amazing, and scary.. There shall be a video up on facebook.

For once, I am really trying to live for me. I always feel like I can't. I feel like it is the battle between good and evil. To do things that are right by me, and then to do things that are right by other people. For once in my life, I am doing me. It feels good. But it feels bad.
E$ told me something smart, for once, lol. "you shouldn't feel bad if you are doing what's best for you."

So right now I'm chilling on the chair, blarin' dat kid cudi * :) sorry e$

Blog, Blog, Blog.

Woo, so the days that have passed me by have been crazy yet fun, for the most part!

Ice Age was pretty awesome, not going to lie. Since friday, I haven't done much. 2 parties and chilled basically. Life has been good.

Man, part of me just wants to leave already. It's getting mundane in NYC. I want to break out and see and meet new people! :) 

So Drake's new video was TERRIBLE, I might add. SMH at Kanye, what's going on man! 

This Time

Wooo! It's been a while since I wrote. 

I Graduated. What an amazing feeling that was ! After 4 long, and hard year; what seemed as if it would never end, ended. But it was great. I loved it. After graduation, I ate lunch with friends, then went out to dinner with my family and my best friend and her family. It was a great day! :) 

Life is great lately! I seriously haven't been happier. Realizing what people are real, and what people are fake. I've reconnected with old friends, and let go of some people recently. I'm just living as positively as possible. Leaving that smile on my face at all times! :)

Anyways, there seriously needs to be more parties around my way. -_- It saddens me that there isn't, lol. I went to 2 parties and both were fun. But, come on people! LIVEN UP HERE ! I guess that's what college is for? Lol. Whoa, I just did a 180. 

Now I understand why some people want to leave for college so bad! To get away from their parents nagging and utter refusal to allow their kids to BREATHE! That's what parents do though. It's so annoying :(.  In the words of Jay-Z "Can I Live?" -_______-

As the days progress, I am getting the jitters about leaving and being on my own. I am really just excited! I want to be out there, now! I'm going to miss a lot of people, but I want something new! AHHHHHHHHHH! :) 

Transformers was amazing, btw. GO SEE IT! I've been watching to many movies... On to Ice Age 3 ! in 3-D! Pray that I don't get dizzy and PASS OUT ! ahhh