Birthday Sex

Woo ! So, today was my birthday. I went to the beach with phil sofia and cristina. After that I went to dinner with my parents. The big ONE EIGHT. It's not much of a difference. The day wasn't that amazing, to be honest. I was just glad that I was out of my house.

High points of my day: Coming home to a GIANT strawberry shortcake, 3 balloons, 2 cars, flowers, and a lotto ticket :) Also, finding out who my room mate is! She seems pretty cool, I must say.

I find in myself that I need to not be so, pensive on things. I think way to much now, maybe about things that shouldn't matter to me. I can't help it though. Oh well.

I hate when people aren't 100% truthful. -_- It may just be me and my overly pensive self, but I know certain people really well, and not being 100% truthful doesn't work out! Especially if I see you almost every day. -_-

I also hate when I have someone on my mind, literally the whole day. It's aggravating. I feel like I am back in middle school, all giddy and the constant though of when will call/text. I feel like a little school girl, awaiting a simple glance from that boy. Then, when he looks my way, my stomach begins to do back flips, my cheeks begin to fill with a red-ish pick color. My eyes wander towards him, as if they have minds of their own. When his hand touches mine, even if it's for a second, I feel my heart jump, like electricity surging though my body, sending a signal to every nerve in my system. My mind begins to wander like a lost child in a toy store. My heart simply takes over all of my actions, disregarding everything that my mind has to say. With that, I get angry with myself. I don't see the point of feeding into the emotion that your heart is so blindly following. It's simple in the fact that I am the only one thinking, and feeling this way. It's a circle, and endless circle of something that is so out of my control. I hate it. Yet, I don't see it any other way...for now.

There are still a lot of emotions that are in my right now. I don't feel like divulging it all now though.

Semi good birthday. Seeing E$ tomorrow, should be interesting.

Good Night