Haunted

I want to go on top of the highest building in NYC and just scream. I want to scream my lungs out till I am to tired to move.

I should be asleep. I have an MRI in about 4 hours. My body hurts, my head hurts, my eyes hurt, I am sore, and physically I am really tired. Yet my mind is wandering to places that I don't like to visit. Reminiscing on past memories, that should stay in the past. Simply wandering to the caverns and caves in my mind where there should be no light. As I lay my head on my pillow, my body at ease, relaxing every muscle, minus the brain. I feel my body drift away into serenity, but my mind is going through each and every one of the memories that torture me. The only thing that takes my mind off of the past, is the chime of my cell phone once a text message is received.

Alright, now, since I got that off of my chest, I really should be sleeping. But since I can't, due to the previous paragraph, and wanting to talk to E$, I shall remain awake until I can bare no more.

Today was long. I went to the beach with the crew in the morning. It was fun. I am tanner, I love it. After that I just had my driving lessons. People yet to amaze me in their stupidity. I shall not delve into that at the moment. I took a nap, then walked around with the crew again. It was a semi eventful, semi uneventful day.

I am not looking forward to my birthday. (which is on monday). Past 13 years have been a flop, no sense in breaking tradition. It's going to be boring I think. I hope I can think of something to do that day, ease my mind a tidder?

I want sleep. Goodnight.