Zoned

"Keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away." -Dinah Craik.
It's always hard to figure out what's worth keeping when you have all of it. That's the saddest part about it. Once you let it go, you may not have all of it again for a really long time.

I want to chop off my leg. I think that would be the best thing to do right now, considering the fact that it's always hurting. If you know me well, you will know that I am never 100% when it comes to my physical health. Either I have a headache, my knee is hurting, my foot is hurting, or my back. It never seems to fail. It is quite frequently my knee though. Sad, sad thing. Oh well.

So today I woke up, and I knew that I would be out of it for most of the day. Just had one of those feelings.

My phone was cut off since last night. It's an odd feeling to be without something that one is always on. Like, a part of me was missing. But, you find out some good stuff when people can't get in touch with you ;)

Anyways, so I went all the way downtown to meet up with pops so I could get my new phone. It took me 2 freaking hours to get downtown. Two hours! It usually takes me, at most, 45 minutes. I ended up meeting Eddie at 2:15 instead of 1:30 -_-. Sorry bro! Lol. He's a really cool kid. We chatted for a few but then split. E$ did end up going to the concert ( =D ) . Too bad he was about 2 hours late or so. By the time that we walked back to Central Park, we couldn't get in. We bummed a spot right out in the back of the arena and listened to Chester French. I must say, I definitely had the best seat in the house. It was good sitting and listening to one of my favorite duos. I want to SEE them in concert though. Lol. Once Chester left the stage, we bounced. We went to eat and what not. It was good fun.

After the city with E$, I headed back into Queens where I met up Sofie, Yan, Ergin, and Arsen. We went bowling, well, they were bowling while I was watching. Sucks having a bum knee man, can't do anything. It was fun though. I swear they are all on some shit! I ate some nachos which completely and totally got me hyper as hell. There was something in the cheese, I swear! What ever it was, it knocked me out of my "zone-ness" that I was in for the whole day.

There are day where my excitement for college is illuminating through me. Then there are days where I never want this summer to end. The animosity in my being is growing as each day approaches faster and faster. I am simply scared. I guess I am afraid to face the reality that it's not going to be the same. Things are going to change, and I have to pull myself up and accept it. I have to realize that it's a good change. I just don't want to lose some people that I care about the most. Even if some of those people don't care as much as I. But that's life.

Its been a long day. I think I shall attempt to fall asleep. Or maybe stare at my phone for the rest of the night -_-

Peace Cromies.