Challenge

I wish that this was easier, but the fact is that it is is, nor will it ever be. I am use to things being difficult and a challenge, but i never thought that this much emotion would be into play.

I can't tell you the future, but I call tell you that I am scared of the future. I am scared of the things that are unknown. I am scared of not being able to control what the out come will be. I am scared of losing everything.

I will always be waiting for things to get better, but I fear that this will all come to a stand still, and stay the way it is.

There are a million and three things on my mind at the moment, things that I have no control over. I have to take life as it comes, I guess and I have to accept things. This is going to be difficult.
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I never thought that distance and time would be my enemy; I never thought that I would loathe something this much in my entire life, yet here I am day in and day out with the same distraught feeling in my heart.

I never knew that something that makes me feel so alive, so wonderful, could make me feel this low as well.