Extraordinarily Flawed

It's almost 2AM, and I can't sleep thanks to amazing Perry Hall and it's 1AM piercing fire alarms. I have been on Facebook, I even took that "social interview" crap, 2 times! lol, yet nothing. So I made some tea that puts me to sleep and I decided to blog :)

These past two days have been alright. Nothing out of the ordinary for me. Classes are dull, and life here is moving a little bit slower. It's probably due to the fact that I wanted today to come a lot faster, and now that it's actually here, I can't sleep. Joy.

I've been writing a lot more fiction lately, due to my Creative Writing class. I mean, I've never really been into that whole writing thing, but it's fun. You get to control the characters and make them do what you want them to. Full control of the outcome! It's a perfect hobby for control freaks, you guys should look into it! :)

I've been really excited to begin my classes for my major. I have to begin to research things so I can make my dream come true! This is going to be one of the most challenging things I will have to do, ever! I like a challenge, so I am up for it! :) WooHoo TeenVouge here I come ! :)

Even though I am feeling the tea right about now, I am still in a really good mood. I don't know, probably because I am writing; doing what I love the most. Maybe it's because I will see E$ in 14 hours (?) ! Well, for whatever the reason is, I am happy that I am in a good mood.

Have you ever been pitted against something that is so perfect for you? This one thing is the epitome and the essence of YOU, and you can have it at any given moment, when ever you please. It pure, and it's perfect, it's you. But, even with all of the perfection, and the mirror image of what you are, you don't want it? You don't want the "perfect" and the pure essence of it. See, now that explains me. We all yearn for this perfection and what not, whether it be out bodies, or relationships. We- as a species- are extremely vain and superficial. Now, see, when I think about ME and what I really want, I notice that perfection isn't really one of those things. When things in your life are flawed, you are exposed to the true beauty of it. Yes, don't get my wrong, I do like things going swiftly and my way, but I realize that when these things occur, it gets boring and I begin to lose appreciation. I like seeing the "bad" in things, it keeps me level headed and reminds me of those better times. I don't want perfect, in any way shape or form. I like things that are flawed (again, not taken to the extreme!) I guess I think this way due to the fact that I am flawed, to the max. I mean, I think that I could literally sit here and explain everything that is wrong with me and my complex ways of thinking. Then again, that's for another blog entry!

This is probably going to be a one time saying for me, so take in it people!: I like to give myself the impression that I am "extraordinary" (not in the conceited, I'm the greatest kind of way). I like to give myself a LITTLE credit for where I am in my life. I mean, honestly, I got to where I am. I went through my High School years. I studied. I took that bogus SAT, 3 times! I sit in my classes. I do what I do! So, yes! I may consider my self a little "extraordinary". Once I achieve the goals that I have set for myself, and my college career is complete, I will be fully extraordinary.

Okay, tea is kicking in full throttle.