Want

I hate this feeling. Like there is no control over anything in this world. We all hurt, that nothing new, but to me I will never understand why some hurt more than others. I guess that is something to be left alone, never to be understood. I wish I could take it all and let it go. I am so frustrated with everything. I am so angry with the way things are going. I have to keep it all in, and release it all later. There is really no point in dwelling on what IS, and what shall remain.

I really want certain things in my life, and when I say that I want these things, I mean it. I want some things BAD! I'm pretty much going to do anything in my power to obtain these things. It's just 2 things. These two things really do mean a lot to me. I am always willing to fight, and I fight for some things more than others. I am going to fight for this till i have no more strength.