Inevitable

Sadly there are some things in life that we will not be able to avoid, but I seriously don't think that I can manage this one thing. I am always one to think; I always think about things that are going to happen months, or years from now. Once a thought is in my head, you'd best believe that it is going to STAY there. This one thing that I am thinking about is a major, MAJOR deal for me. I know that I am going to follow through with it, but I really do pray that there is a loop hole that I can some how fall through. I'm sorry but when it comes to certain things, I will NOT take it lightly. It's not a matter of being optimistic or anything like that. It about the hard facts. This is REAL. This is something that is going to happen. To top it off, I don't even know how long this is going to last! I am going into this blindly, knowing very little things. I don't know how I will be able to deal with this. This person probably thinks that I am over reacting. Whatever.

I am very...worried right now. Its making my anxiety sky rocket to points I haven't had in a really long time. Again, this is something that I am going to have to deal with.

I have a feeling that me and one person are going to become VERY close...I hope that I am doing the right thing. I hope that I will be able to last without crying every single day. (Highly unlikely)

This is what happens when you love someone more than anything in the world.