Nothing

Today I didn't wake up in a bad mood, but it wasn't great either. I feel the need to be alone today for some reason. Just don't feel like being around people. Always want to talk to one person, but I guess he is too busy.

I honestly don't know how I feel at the moment. What I am thinking about, I really would rather not say here. What I want to say, I can't say. Just a jumble of things. All I know is that right now I want to sleep.

I know that once I go home, things are going to be really different. I already feel it when I speak with some people. I guess that some things are bound to change. Replacement sometimes happens. I mean, I can't blame people for it, and I knew that it was going to happen before I left, so why do I feel so low? I am really just waiting for this whole "replacement" thing to go full circle and for everyone I love to just up and find something better. Its happened before, it will happen again. Life at its best.

I feel like I'm a ... disappointment? Like there is this level that I have to be at, but I will never seem to reach it. It just angers me. Sadly, everyone has a bar that I have to reach. I am simply skimming the surface.

The fact is I am happy with most of the things in my life. I love my parents, my few friends. I love my boyfriend. School is good. Just feel like...I throw so much out there, and it's invisible.

I am always complaining about the same thing -_-'

Whatever.

You always talk, but actions speak louder than words; your actions say nothing.